The doubts continue

My doubt has not waivered. My hair isn't the only one transitioning, but my life is as well. I have a new job and it's making me question my transitioning. I will be working longer hours then my last job so I wont have as much time to put towards my hair. My hair is also starting to tangle again. It's like if I don't mess with it, I end up making up for the lack of manipulation the next day with detangling. It's so annoying. To cut down on the detangling I usually moisturize and seal my hair while it's still a little damp on my wash days. This usually cuts down on me having to do a lot of detangling later on. Well on my last wash day I was soooo tired. All I managed to put on my hair was my leave ins. After that I rapped a scarf around my head and fell out. Well despite my hair being extremely soft and just about perfect after that wash day when I got around to moisturizing and sealing the next night it was horrible. My new growth is on a whole new level. I'm just getting to the point where I have so much stuff I need to think about and don't even want to be bothered with my hair. I've been thinking about relaxing, but in the end it just makes me cringe. I've gotten this far. I'm about 4 months post and I have 5 more to go. I don't want to give up now. As soon as I relax I'll be back to square one if suddenly I want to transition again. I'm thinking the best thing to get me threw this is to either to get some braids or twist. I think as soon as I do that and just take a break from my hair I'll be alright. Hopefully my spirit will be renewd and I can get through it. Pray for me people. Anyway I'm off to work.
Peace & Love

Pushbacks...oh yeah and lets not forget doubts

So I guess I'll begin with the push back. I will once again be pushing back straightening my hair. I won't be going out of town this weekend unfortunately. I thought about flat ironing anyway but my cousin is having a 70's theme party tomorrow so I figured I'd rock some curls. I think I've learned my lesson and won't put a date on flat ironing this time. It will happen when it happens. I should be starting a new job in a few weeks so maybe I'll do it then. Though I doubt I will.

I'd also like to say despite buying my staple HBC items the other week I'm still buying stuff. Like I have no idea why I completely disregarded my 1 month no spending challenge. Like it's ridiculous. lol The sad thing about it is at this moment I have the urge to go to Ulta and look and buy some hair products. The other day I went to the a BSS here and looked into some wigs there. I'm looking for a nice cheap yet realistic wig that I can throw some berets and scarves on. Just to give my hair a break once in a while. I also to my surprise saw some JBCO. OMFG ya'll I'm so surprised I found it there. I was like 110% sure that I'd have to order that online. So yeah I will definitely be picking some up next time I go there. I actually didn't buy all that much stuff when I went there just a few hair accessories. WHich I will get to later in the post.

Now to the doubt part of the post. Well many know that a lot of people on their HHJ(Healthy Hair Journey) turn to YT for inspiration. At night when I'm moisturizing and sealing my hair I watch many videos. One fellow YTber who inspires me is Nunaavane. People she is not only inspiring because of her hair journey but also spiritually inspiring. Well the other day I watched her relaxer day video. Her progress was amazing. I started thinking maybe I should get a relaxer. I mean I want my natural hair, but at times I want straight hair too. Is that so bad? I know I can go to the Dominicans and get my hair blown out. I don't even know if there are even Dominicans here to blow my hair out if that is the case. So yeah after watching her video I started to really re think if I'm making the right decision. I don't want to cut my hair off then completely regret it. Even though I may have been super psyched before I got it cut. Uh I tell you this is such an emotional roller coaster but I'm sure w/e the decision I make in the end I will be happy with.

Finally we have this months purchases for the most part....

I picked up the conditioners from work.
Herbal Essence None of Your Frizziness Smoothing Conditioner
Tresemme Thermal Recovery Replenishing Conditioner
From the BSS:
3 flowers(clips/ponytail holders)
Purple Beret
(Not Shown)
Dove Intense Damage Therapy Conditioner

I was also going to pick up these cute sparkly berets but they were $8 so I decided to wait on those. They were sooo cute though. Maybe I'll go back and get them tomorrow. The only reason I got the Dove conditioner(besides the fact I'm a PJ) is I had a $2 CVS Extra Buck coupon plus a $1 coupon for a Dove Shampoo/Conditioner(from newspaper). So I basically paid .99 for it. Don't just be a PJ be one that saves people lol. I actually have another $1 coupon for the Heat Defense Therapy Shampoo/Conditioner/or Mist. I actually got that because I signed up for a sample at their website. Which is still available by the way so check their site out. Speaking of which I signed up for a sample from Joico for their humidity blocker which I still have not recieved. I was so looking forward to trying it too.

Well that is it for the time being. I think I'm going to start a new blog. I'll just keep this one hair related and my other one will be random talk I guess. Peace & Love

That time has come sooner then I thought...I THINK!

So the other day when I washed my hair I planned to detangle in the shower. I felt some tangles the day before and I had to do something about them. To be honest detangling in the shower freaks me out. I'm always afraid I'll have tons of breakage so I never fully detangle in the shower. Well after I washed and my hair was 85-90% dry I started moisturizing and sealing like usual. Well when I started I found out the true extent of my tangles. It was CRAZY! I had no idea how I could have no idea that my hair was that tangled. It was crazy. It literally took me 3 hours to do my hair. I actually made a YT video explaining the whole situation but I have yet to get around to posting it for some reason. Forgive me.
After I got all the tangles out a few days later I noticed another one. I don't know what is going on. My hair does not usually tangle like this. Which is why I THINK it may be time to BC. I don't know how it was even as easy as it was to detangle my hair. I just think the longer my hair gets the worse the tangles would be. So maybe it is best I just cut my hair off now. So on Wednesday I plan on going to this natural hair salon and seeing if they will cut my hair off. NOT YET! Eventually lol.
Oh yes let me not forget. In my last post I said I would not purchase any hair products for a month. I did however go out and buy my HB Olive Creme as well as my HB Carrot Creme. I NEEDED them. Seriously. I would have not gotten all of those tangles out had it not been for my carrot creme. As far as my Olive Creme I live by that stuff. I love it soo much. I use that a lot more then the Carrot Creme.

Well I washed my hair not too long ago so now it's time to do something with it. Peace & Love~

Welcome to the JUNGLE!!!!

No fun and games here though. Ok I've hit that point that every transitioner and stretcher alike dreads. You know what I'm talking about.... That moment that tempts you to break down and get a relaxer because you just can't take it anymore. Lucky for me I've hit the "hair gone wild" point BUT I actually have no desire to perm. I mean don't even get me wrong. I do think about how great all this growth would look if I got a relaxer. I would love to see how much growth I truly retained with a relaxer. That being said I'm just over actually having one. It was nice while I had it. Now it's time for me to move on. This wild hair just makes me want to BC now. The only thing is...ok I know this is corny but I was looking forward to the wash and gos. It's almost winter though I won't be able to truly appreciate them during this time. Unless I want to get sick that is.

Since I'm feeling the urge to BC now I think I may not make it to next year. So I'm probably going to do it once I get settled in my new job and start school. Then again like I said earlier winter is coming. That makes me want to reconsider. I'm always cold. Now that winter is coming I'm going to need the extra hair to keep my head warm. lol

You know what I forgot to mention in my last post about my length check. I guess that's what I should call it. Well I pushed it back to next week after I was supposed to do it last week. Well I'm pushing it back again. I'll be doing it the week after next. I'm not sure if I'm going out of town next week but I'm definitely going the week after next. So expect some pictures from that. Also this month I'm going to try a PJ rehab challenge. A personal one. I'm just going to try not to buy any hair products this month. Lets hope I accomplish it. I was going to post some pictures of my new growth but I'm feeling extremely lazy now so look for those in the next post. Well that is it for now. Peace & Love!

Continued...lol

I'm so sorry I'm just continuing my last post. This week was so so busy. I had a job interview the day after my post which is why I didn't finish it. I was in the middle of doing my hair. I didn't finish that until almost 1AM I think. I had to be up like at 7 something so I didn't have time to finish my post. After that my week was non stop between work and church events. When I got home today I passed out. lol No joke. The only 2 reasons I'm really even up was because I've had a taste for ice cream all week and hadn't had any time to enjoy the ice cream I got on Wedneseday. The second reason was because I really wanted to finish the last post or at least continue it. So here I go.

I didn't just get the heat protectant spray from Sally's. I also picked up some more processing bags and butterfly clips. I don't know if it's just me but I keep losing my clips. I have no idea what I do with those things but anyway. On my little trip shopping the other day I also picked up some makeup. I'd post pictures but I haven't even taken any. Which sort of brings me to my next subject. I finally got my YT channel straight. I got a new camera so the sounds a lot better then the first video I made a while back. On there you can see all the stuff I picked up.
http://www.youtube.com/user/VioletSauce

Anyway back to my hair. I was supposed to bun it up this week like I stated in my last post. Which I did not. I planned to go back to the buns after the interview but like I said the week was soooo busy. I literally rocked that flexi rod style until tonight. By the time I made it into my room I was in the bed sleep. I didn't have enough energy to do anything except put a hair bonnet on. Surprisingly my curls held up even though I went to sleep on them. When I got up in the morning I just combed them out and threw a headband on and it actually looked good. I think it's actually because of my clarifying wash. I think I may be a little heavey handed. Well I should say I know I'm heavy handed. I looked inside my HB Olive Creme jar and was blow away. I have like a tiny bit left. I just got it like a month ago. What a shame. I love that stuff though. It has to be my fave moisturizer hands down. I like HB Carrot Creme too but it's a protein so I don't want to get crazy with that.

Let me not forget the Castor Oil Challenge at Hairlista. Well I'm taking a break from it. My week(as I've stated a gajillion time) has been too busy for me to continue it. On top of that my new growth is prominent, and I don't feel like moisturizing and sealing then going back and applying the castor oil. I loved the challenge I just have too much going on at the moment. I may pick it back up at the beginning of November or later on this month.

So anyway that is pretty much it for now. TTYL!! Peace & Love<3